I always called her Jiji; her first name never seemed to fit the space she held in my life. Pushpa, my second elder sister, was born on May 17, 1946—fifteen months before India stepped into independence. She was the third of six siblings, all born within the familiar walls of our home in Marwadi Mohalla, Wardha. All, that is, except me.
Between my sister Asha and me, Jiji held a place that felt natural and could not be replaced. She was eleven years older, and to me she was both a companion and a guide. Our eldest sister carried the authority of a second mother. Jiji was different. She was steady, always there. I turned to her without thinking, through every phase of my life.
She studied in Marathi-medium schools in Wardha—Sarkari Madhyamik Shala, Kesrimal Kanya Shala, and Craddock High. In Class 10, she and our brother Ashok were in the same class. I still remember the story of their Physics exam. Jiji came out in tears, sure she had failed. Ashok was calm and confident. When the results came, she had passed. He had not.
At that time, she wanted to study science and become a doctor. The dream did not break with drama. It was set aside quietly. A local professor advised our father that a medical career would delay her marriage and limit her prospects. My father chose what seemed practical then. Jiji did not argue. She accepted it. Science gave way to Arts, and her chance at a life in medicine slipped away, almost without a sound.
She married Shri Tarachandji Chandak in May 1965. She tried to continue her studies at Yashwant College, but a new household has its own pull. Travel, responsibility, and daily work took over. Soon after her final exams, and the birth of her daughter Mamta, her formal education came to a quiet end. Life moved on.
As a girl, she was full of energy. She loved Kho Kho, Langdi, and relay races. That spirit stayed with her. I remember once we were playing Gulli Danda when her father-in-law arrived without warning. Our mother, worried about what people would say, called her inside. Jiji slipped out through the back door and, within minutes, was seen busy with housework, as if she had never stepped out. That was her way. She found a balance between what she was and what was expected of her.
Her married life took her across the country—Madras, Nagpur, Kagaznagar, Baroda, Gwalior, Indore. Each move meant starting again. She built a home each time, from very little. For years, she carried this without complaint, making sure her children never felt the strain.
During my medical years in Nagpur, her home in Shankarnagar became my refuge. I went there almost every weekend. The house was always full—relatives, children, noise—but Jiji moved through it calmly. She cooked, served, and somehow made space for everyone. We played cards late into the evening. On Monday mornings, her children would hide my cycle keys, trying to keep me there just a little longer.
We wrote to each other every week. Her postcards were simple, filled with small details of her day. Once, when I did not reply, she wrote asking if I had stopped writing because she was poor—whether I still cared for her. I read that line in my hostel room and felt its weight. I wrote back at once. That was Jiji. She never asked for much, but she held on to her relationships in a way that left no room for doubt.
In the late eighties, when times were hard, she began to work. She sold salwar suits from her flat in Indore, traveling to Delhi and Gandhinagar to bring back material. Where her husband could act on impulse, she held things together. She carried the strain quietly, without complaint.
In January 2020, Jijaji fell ill in Pune. When the family spoke about withdrawing life support, she listened quietly. She understood what was being said. There was no visible turmoil, only a calm acceptance of what lay ahead. He passed away before any decision had to be made.
Her own illness had begun earlier, in the winter of 2018, with ovarian cancer. She went through surgery and chemotherapy without seeking sympathy. When the disease returned in 2022, she faced it in the same way—quietly, with resolve.
The Circle of Care
Her final years were held together by a small, steady circle of care. At its center were Aalok, her sister’s son, and Archana, her daughter-in-law.
Aalok never let distance come in the way. A phone call was enough. He would arrive soon after. In hospital corridors, he spoke to doctors, handled the paperwork, and stayed by her side. He sat through long chemotherapy sessions, lightening the mood with small jokes and finding simple ways to ease her discomfort. Jiji waited for his visits. Yet, he would never take even a glass of water from her home.
At their flat in Kanchanjunga Enclave, life had grown quieter. After her granddaughter Sakshi left for the United States, only three remained—Jiji, her son Manoj, and Archana. It was here that care became part of daily life. Archana managed everything without fuss—appointments, medicines, the endless trips to the pharmacy. As the illness progressed, she did what she could to keep Jiji at home and comfortable.
She would sit with her during meals, urging her to eat a little more. On long afternoons, she stayed by her bedside, her hand resting gently on Jiji’s. It did not feel like duty. It felt like affection. Jiji often told me she was fortunate to have an “angel” at home.
The Two Voices
I lived those years in two roles: the younger brother she loved, and the doctor she trusted. We spoke many times each day. When the pain grew, she would call, and I would listen. Often, that was all she needed. She had a simple faith in me. She would tell others that my medicines always worked. She trusted my judgment more than that of her oncologists. If I suggested a scan, she agreed without question.
The hardest time came when treatment could no longer help. During her visits to Sevagram, we spoke often about the end. She was clear in her mind. She did not want a long life at any cost. She wanted a life without pain. As she became confined to her bed, I had to tell her the truth—there would be no more scans, no more chemotherapy. We would focus on comfort.
She accepted it without resistance. In those months, she taught me more than any textbook could. I saw what palliative care truly means, not in a hospital, but at home. Through her, I understood how dignity is kept, even at the end. And how, even then, I could remain her brother while speaking as her doctor.
The Final Order
As the end came closer, the illness slipped out of our conversations. We spoke of the past instead—of places we had lived in, people we had known, and small shared memories. A year before she died, I spoke to her about a living will. I told her that when she could no longer speak, this would speak for her—no ICU, no machines, a death at home. These were not easy conversations for me. But I felt it was better to be honest than to offer false hope.
In her last days, she spoke less, slept more, and ate very little. She was tired all the time. A dull, constant pain stayed with her. Her walks to the neighbour’s garden became short strolls inside the house, and then, slowly, she could not even turn in bed.
Our last video call was the day before she died. She opened her eyes, recognized me, and then closed them gently. That night, memories came in waves. I felt my eyes fill with tears. As a doctor, I see illness and suffering every day. But this was my sister. That distance was gone.
On the morning of March 22, 2026, Aalok called. I could sense it in his voice even before he spoke. She had passed away at home, just as she had wished—quietly, without struggle, without machines.
Only later did I learn how carefully she had thought about these last moments. Six years earlier, she had chosen a photograph she liked and asked her grandson, Sarang, to keep it safely. Six weeks before her death, she told him that this was the photograph to be used. She was clear about the details. No marigolds—she never liked them. No white jasmine. She wanted roses. And she did not want silence; she asked for a band for her final journey.
Even at the end, she arranged things in her own way. When I think of her now, I do not see the illness. I see the homes she built, the letters she wrote, and the quiet way she held all of us together. All my life, I called her Jiji. That is how she stays with me.
