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It was neither. It was a chorus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Shaily had curated the photographs \u2014 an unbroken visual line from my knobbly-kneed childhood in Arvi to the convocation robes of Berkeley. Ashwini had edited and arranged the text despite the cruelty of exams and ward rounds. Amrita had coordinated the outreach with the persistence of someone who does not accept I’m busy<\/em> as a final answer. They had printed it professionally in Nagpur. It had the weight of effort, not just paper.<\/p>\n\n\n\n When I opened it, I realised it was not a photo album. It was a mirror.<\/p>\n\n\n\n We assume we know who we are. We do not \u2014 not clearly \u2014 until someone holds up a different angle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bhavana wrote about our twenty-five years together. The beautiful stretches, the rough patches, the small quarrels that now looked almost comic in hindsight. She teased me about my stubbornness \u2014 including the famous names controversy when the children were born. But she also wrote about the one thing she valued most: the way I had made learning a shared habit in our home. Reading her piece, I understood something I had not quite articulated before. Our marriage had become, over time, an intellectual partnership. Two people learning how to grow without drifting apart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Pushpa Jiji, my elder sister, took me back to the beginning. My early fascination with the Ramayana and Mahabharata. My strange childhood hunger for books. The steady pull I had always felt toward Sevagram. Reading her words, I realised something I often forget: many choices I thought were decisions had been, in some ways, destinations.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dr MVR Reddy wrote about a chilly December night, years ago, when his son Shridhar was born. A difficult birth. He described how I had stayed through those long hours \u2014 pacing corridors, calling surgeons, hovering without fuss, doing the small things that matter when someone you love is frightened. In the rush of everyday life, I had forgotten that night entirely. His words returned it to me, intact.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Friendship, I learnt again, is often forged in hospital waiting rooms, not at celebratory dinners.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dr Suhas Jajoo brought back my college days \u2014 my sketches, a hobby I had quietly abandoned; my widely acclaimed<\/em> final MBBS practical exams; my early obsession with research. He called me shy and self-effacing. I smiled at that. I had spent years trying to outgrow shyness, only to discover that it does not disappear. It simply learns better manners.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Then came the students. That section made me laugh, wince, and soften \u2014 all within a few pages.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dipesh, a bright young doctor, described a bedside clinic where I had lost my temper. The final-year students had arrived unprepared \u2014 clueless about even the basic causes of fever. I refused to teach. Go to the library<\/em>, I told them, and walked out. He wrote about the terror of that moment. He also wrote about what happened next: I returned the following day and spent two hours teaching them properly \u2014 how to think, how to investigate, how to treat, and how to respect a patient’s story before chasing the lab reports.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dipesh also mentioned something oddly tender. He had noticed my signature, found it distinctive, and secretly started imitating it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I had never imagined that a teacher’s influence could travel through something as trivial as handwriting. But perhaps that is how teaching works. You do not just transfer knowledge. You leave behind habits, gestures, and tiny imprints you never planned.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The book then crossed the ocean.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Christine Ho, Maureen Morgan, and Joseph Ezoua \u2014 my Berkeley quartet, minus one \u2014 had each sent something from far away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Christine wrote about the atmosphere of learning<\/em> I had tried to create, and about how my small studio apartment on Channing Way had become a second home for the study group. She remembered the gelato after long exams, the trips down to Berkeley’s Gourmet Ghetto for Indian food at the end of semester. She remembered, too, the 200 to 300 patients who had gathered at Sevagram’s train station to see me off when I left for America \u2014 and said she had understood, from that single image, exactly what kind of person I was.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Maureen wrote about her thesis. Two months before it was due, her intended topic had collapsed. She was certain she would not graduate. When I heard, I sat down with her and we found a new direction. She not only completed the paper \u2014 we published it together months later. She wrote that this was the kind of loyalty that defined me, and that I had a gift for making people feel they had done everything themselves. I am not sure that is entirely true. But it is the kindest thing anyone has ever written about the way I try to help.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Joseph wrote the shortest tribute and, in some ways, the most lasting. Our friendship means too much to me to find the words.<\/em> He wrote about our discussions, our shared ambitions for public health in our respective countries, and then he wrote something I have returned to many times since:<\/p>\n\n\n\n SP would share advice and then stand back to let you choose your own way. Then, he would lend a shoulder when it was your own heart you were losing.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Reading their words in Sevagram \u2014 thousands of miles from Shattuck Avenue, from the library steps, from Christine’s living room floor covered in open textbooks \u2014 I felt the world contract into something manageable. The distances remained. The relationships did not.<\/p>\n\n\n\n And then came the voices that mattered in a different way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ashwini wrote something every father hopes to hear but rarely does. He admitted, with a kind of reluctant affection, that he was beginning to notice himself becoming more like me. Amrita thanked me for the one thing I valued most: trust. She wrote about how I had supported her decisions without hovering, and she remembered the nonsensical rhymes we used to make up when she was a toddler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Shaily called me the cynosure of all eyes. That line made me blush \u2014 not because it was untrue, but because it was too generous.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Families, I realised, are often kinder than facts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n We cut the cake, laughed, and took photographs. But the real celebration happened later, when the house had settled and the noise had thinned. I sat with the black book in my lap, turning pages slowly, as if I might miss something important if I rushed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Fifty is often described as the age of the midlife crisis \u2014 panic about time, anxiety about unfinished dreams, fear of irrelevance. But that evening, what I felt was not crisis. It was integration. Ashwini, Amrita, and Shaily had given me the gift of my own history. They reminded me that my life was not a sequence of events. It was a web of relationships.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The black book still sits on my shelf. It is more valuable than any degree or award I have collected. It is proof \u2014 not of achievement \u2014 but of something quieter and rarer:<\/p>\n\n\n\n That I have lived, loved, and been loved in return<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\n\n\nWhat the Mirror Showed<\/h2>\n\n\n
\n\n\nThe Teacher and the Terror<\/h2>\n\n\n
\n\n\nVoices from Across the Ocean<\/h2>\n\n\n
\n\n\nWhat the Children Said<\/h2>\n\n\n
\n\n\nThe Book on the Shelf<\/h2>\n\n\n